Was looking back at some old pictures and books from my secondary days... wow... hahahaha.. it's so funny how everyone looked like, the clothes we wore and the quirky and geeky hairstyles and spectacles we all put on. Grin*. It's silly-funny-nerdy like. But still, that was how everyone dressed like 10 years ago!
Well, I'm caught in between putting some pics here and not .bleh*... but one thing I remember so vividly, the evenings and nights we spent, online, ICQ-ing.. yeah, not MSN, but the "uh-oh" sound go off everytime a yellow little message blinks at my computer tray. Well, I remembered, typing, (i learnt to type fast through ICQ)...ahhaha.. and replying messages all night through. We'd hv chat rooms, and talk for hours! Well, the familiar faces in the school magazine reminds me of those chat rooms. I got to know some great people through those chatrooms. And well, they were one of those people in life that passes through our path in life, and somehow managed to put some kind of imprint upon our hearts. grin*
What am I talking about? Well, to be honest, it was those times that I got to know a couple of guy friends, who end up colouring my life, and really helped me realized, what kind of guy I really want to be with :) They're not all that bad, mind you.. hehehe.. but the different characters and personalities really did made me smile :)
I remembered, a F3 guy, winking at me, at the library... a nice quiet and cool guy telling me stuff about himself... I also got to know a couple of funny people who kept yelling out TUKIA every morning at the school halls, and then, making me smile everytime :) I remembered the shy guy who gave me a cute "i like you" letter... but I really didn't like him that way.. and the teacher who kept shushing me cos i was too talkative in class, and the teacher who warned me and my friend cause we were fooling around in the library... :)
Well, some distant memories bring me back to reflect the years of my youth, growing in the Lord, because of the help of some very devoted and strong Christian brothers and sisters. They really encouraged us to pray out loud, to come for Christian Fellowship meetings and be blessed, I remember one particular morning in our usual prayer-place, and thinking to myself, Yes, Lord, I wan to serve You...because I've seen how these people live...
I am thankful, for the guy who treated me really nice, whose cousin also was funny and cute and we hung out, occassionally. Grin*. Then, there was the high school puppy love, and there was this boy, who particularly melted my heart, cause he was just so good with words..hahahaha.. poetry, the like :) He bought me alot of gifts, wrote me countless letters and emails, but in the end, we both knew it was not meant to be. I don't know how, but that also opened my eyes to realize, how I expected alot in a relationship, and I needed to change from that :)
From those experiences, there were some cat-fights in between...muahahaha.. ;P Some misunderstandings and let-downs, some cheers and victories, and some quiet times by myself :) I appreciated the good times, and the not-so-good times, being called alot of names, just because people didn't know who I am, but being mean. But for those people who knew me, I guess, they'd know me.
As I flipped through the pages of my school books, I also realized, for the love of God, I don't remember a single thing I learned! ahahhaa.. esp, maths. Cos those things never quiet make much sense to me anyway! hahaha... :P But, seeing my school magazine, back in SXI, I can't help but to cherish those memories. They made me who I am today. And I miss school many times, just cause I had so much attention..ahahha.. and also because being young means so much easier than now.
But, looking to today, I realized, through those experiences, some relationships and friendships changed, some remained, some faded away. Some never quite mattered, but it all added up to my youth days :) I recalled the most of meeting my hubby. Ours is such a special story. I thought through, how was it that we remained friends for so many years and being apart for so long, could we ever managed to build such a strong friendship. I guess, friendships never really count distance. Just the heart :))))
My hubby, I never knew him when I was in school, but only much later in one of the christian youth thingy...and I don't even like him!...ahahha..just his guitar playing. grin*.
Sure I miss those childish ways and funny moments back then. Today, I try to be part of the school scene again. When God lets me in again.... soon.. I pray :) Uni days were a daze to me, the whole 3 years, all I ever did was study, study, study, assignments, tutorials, lectures, registering for courses and climbing stairs..hahaha.. I don't have many friends, cos I just go right home after classes. So, it was in the 6th Form that I enjoyed the most :) Today, I look at the pictures, and wishing silently, one day, I really want to be able to keep a different set of pictures, those that show me being on the other side for once, and still enjoying every bit of it!!! :)
